"He also looks stronger than me. I'm pretty weak, dunno if I can pull it off. I think it'd take a miracle. Then again, so does me being alive even now." Remus had to laugh, it was kind of funny. He leaned his head back and looked up at the ceiling, wondering if it was worth gambling on. If it was worth trusting strangers over his doctors. Given their stellar advise up until now, maybe it was worth trusting Holden. "Maybe if your scientist has time, he can explain it to me like I'm five or something but -- I'd love stopping."

The side effects were, literally, killing him. "I'm usually not... not this impulsive. Going off with some guy. Living with him. Moving cities. I just -- you know, I just lost it all. Got fired, can't pay rent, what else am I gonna do?" He smiled at Holden, laughing a little. "I never thought that though - like fucking hell, he's handsome. How did that happen?!"