"Because I can't be James! I won't ever be him. Stop expected me to be someone I'm not. Do I look like someone who can just -- just be like that? Do you know me at all?" Severus stood no chance in a fist fight but he could shove Sirius back and make distance, not wanting him this close and questioning him in such a way. It hurt too much.

"I can't -- care like he cares. It's not in me. I can't act however you want. I can't hug you and be all over you, I can't understand it. I-- I'm not that kind of man." He wasn't even a man, not really. He was still a boy, desperate to be older and more powerful. He wanted to never be touched or harmed again.